Friday, February 4, 2011

Bliss`Ville ♥♥♥

The Journey into "BlissVille" is purely for the Strong at Heart ♥. 



To enter this zone, one must come from strong and patient genes.  Walking into this UNIQUE ONLY TO YOU awareness, your NOT going it alone.  Groups of people are forging new relationships with each other daily, creating circles of Love that when tossed into the Sphere of never ending circles of Love, continually growing, as one strong heart meets another.  Only strong hearts can take the work needed, to walk in the places, where no one else will travel. 

As I understand these truths, I become more connected to the sphere that is directly plugged into all that is.  A strong heart can only be watered by the tears of those who God has placed upon their hearts.  Those who remain faithful to the way that comes from Love, will find a peace. 

Connecting takes work, which requires a heart that is not going to give up, just before the finish line, I have been told, and I am beginning to believe...keep striving, keep connecting, keep walking, even when your not sure of where your heading...movement brings about change...and change begins in the Heart of a Strong Soul.♥

Bless this night and the changes that are occurring, all in the proper and perfect time.♥

-ListeningHeart Kim-

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Time is a Healer

Time Is A Healer ♥♥♥


Time is a healer and the older I get, the more I understand that this is a great truth.  In Love, everything will always turn out alright.  Bless this very day and everything in it....♥♥♥

ListeningHeart Kim

L@@king Inside of Me...♥♥♥

As I continue to look inside of myself, I am learning all the truths of who I am.  Today I am finding it harder to write.  Normally, I would say well, then just don't write.  Give into the feeling.  For today, I have chosen the opposite of what "Normally" is.  I will write in faith that the truth will reveal itself to me and through me.  It is the only way to come out of what is my Normal Way.  Today, I have surpassed the thoughts, have danced with the notion to listen, but have drawn the line in the sand so to speak, that My Life Was Gonna Matter To Me...and if that be Truth, then doing my Normal things, must become what is not the way of how I wish to live any longer. 

WOW, a change has come.  I have done the very thing that allows change to enter in.  I must be the change I wish to see in the world.  I must be the one to change my own self.  I must be the one to walk in a new light.  I must be the one to move in a new and shining way.  I choose the life each day that I will live, and what I want to impart into my world.  Will I take those steps of change, will I choose the very things that are not easy.  Will I choose to be the change I wish to see?

In doing, I change, in writing I change, in sharing I change, and open myself up into this new and marvelous world that is slowly beginning to look like something worth living for.  I am so very alive in the knowing that I am today, doing the very best I can, where I am at, and that I AM making choices to change the heart of me...and as I continue to make these little daily changes, I WILL CHANGE, and I Will be the CHANGE I WISH Too SEE in THIS WORLD, of mine.  Looking inside of me, brings about this very change to which I seek...I am beginning to see the affects of the changes, in my thoughts, and in the life I have been living.  Change is Coming....I am that change....  ♥♥♥

In my own truth I leave this note today...I am so very grateful that I am looking at myself, changing myself daily.


Monday, January 31, 2011

Reaching out and Across






The more I reach, the more others reach back.  I have chosen that this year I will reach up and out of my comfort zone.  I will no longer remain stuck- tucked deep inside of myself.  Connecting with family and friends from my yesterdays are proving to be the very life line I have needed.  I don't mean life-line as in I need help,.  It simply means I no longer feel comfortable in isolation and unconnected with the very people who have and who can bring Life in a new way.  It is in living and reconnecting that life is born.  I have been as of late barraged with the people's of my past, whether family or friends, and it feels incredibly uplifting.  They are offering me their hand, and I have offered mine.  It is the dance within my soul, that continues to reach forward, so that I may reconnect Back, or plug into Life...Abundance at its best. 

As I journey closer to my heart and souls need for a full and productive life, I find I can no longer remain closed off.  It is still scary for me.  I am taking some of the lessons that I have  been taught and applying them.  I am giving wings to my world.  Taking flight.  Soaring to a new place that is both scary and exciting.

In what ways can I expand and grow without fear?  Simple, I must walk forward in faith.  Walk through, pass through, crawl through, jump through, the hoop of my life.  The circle to which my life will manifest itself as I choose Love over Fear.  I can see what is said so clearly, the journey of a thousand miles, begins with its first step.  I am stepping out, stepping through, and will keep stepping.  One step at a time.

No longer will another persons will serve over mine.  No longer will I allow anyone to tell me, what I want or need.  I will not.  I will, walk by faith and will reach forward in faith, and trust the outcome, to be for my highest good.

All this self talk is serving me very well.  See the more I speak well to myself, the more well I become.  My mind and body believes whatever I tell it.  It simply responds to my inward talk.  So I have decided to talk wellness and wholeness into my life and will continue to reach up and out and across, and I will grab a hold of each lifeline, that offers healthy connections.  As I work on myself, I know that I am walking a life that by example will benefit others.  My intent is to remain at my center core of who I am, and of who I want to become.  I am who I am, said Sam...I am who I am said Kim.  Accept me for me, so I can do the same for you. 

My life is becoming this beautiful dance, spiritually significant.  I am on the journey with many others, who are NOW also reaching back and across to me, and together, my hope is to bring more Love and acceptance into the world.  Today I end this note in love and acceptance of who I am becoming, may we each grow in this new place of reaching out and across together.



ListeningHeart Kim 

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Morning Has Broken ♥

Good Sunday Morning ♥



So much is happening around me and within me.  I awoke to find this song by Cat Stevens.  It speaks volumes, and it is speaking to my heart in many, many ways.  On this Sunday morning I find myself reflecting on my week.  The many blessings that have showed up, and reached into my soul, and that are looking for soul action.  I am being stirred to honor the very heart of who I am.  I cannot seem to stop the thoughts, or the conversations that are building like blocks upon my life.  My life is stacking itself upon itself, until it over flows into an action that simply has to be expelled.  I can no longer sit.  I can no longer stay stagnant to who and what God has intended for me.  Its an outpouring, and an in filling of a new life.  A new sense of urgency is setting in, and capturing my body, mind and soul.  A sort of taking myself back, from the dark recess of my soul, which has been hidden, and sad.  I have longed for this freedom moment.  It is both wonderful and scary all wrapped into one.  It means, change is here, now.  It means I cannot close my eyes anymore.  It means, I simply must do what I must do.  Expressing this out flowing through words is part of this must do process.

Today in this new moment I write sharing my heart and soul with you, but mainly with myself.  These words that I cast upon these empty pages fill up so very quickly when I am in the moment of now.  An amazing wonderful process.  When I stop and think for a moment, I get into worry.  I get concerned with the thoughts that I place, here.  Worried that family or friends might not understand, or be offended or find me a total LOON.  My intent is to write from my heart, with no intent to harm anyone.  To come always from the positive and loving perspective of truth, that heals us all.  We are all each other.  I certainly do not want to harm myself or another human being if I can help it.  So placing this thought out there, I pray it  helps me to place this thought in  its proper place of not worrying, about what I cannot control.  Everyone has a right to feel what they feel on any given moment.  In love and in gratitude I write and what is meant to be shared will be imparted and taken in whatever way is meant.  I control nothing except myself.  With honor and integrity I will continue on my own personal journey.  I will not stop the very thoughts, that erupt from my soul, to be healed. 

My life has been so full of so many valuable lessons.  So many valuable people who have left there mark on my life.  I would not be, and could not be who I am without them.  Each of them.  as a matter of fact each person in this life has affected me.  Every image, every situation, every partnership I have ever found myself in, has spoken to my soul.  Now, how will I apply all of this, and how will I choose to view them?  For me, I know it will be viewed positively and always with the lesson it has taught me. 

I have been a faithful soul ever since I can remember.  I believe I have always felt a closeness to God, who has been with me all the way through.  My God who has delivered me from many a bad situation, I know why.  I was meant for a great time.  A greater time to come.  The time of right NOW.  To write, to share, to love.  To become the person, God intended when He saved me from myself.  I am a work in progress, and God has not ever taken His Hand off of me.  His guidance that has always came in the just right point in time.  Always.  Whether he sent people, or words or images, help in my hour of need.  Always He has delivered to me, a way out a way through and a way.  I will continue to honor the God of my soul.  He has set me free.  Is He some ominous creature...lurking to hurt me...NOT even close.  He is always Love, He is always faithful.  He always shows up in the just right moment.  I know this, because it is truth for me.  My experiences in life have made me so very aware of my God, who walks with me, talks with me and Loves through me, when I allow Him too.  He does NOT take control of me, He waits on me, always, to come to Him,.  In my weaknesses and in my glory he shares His very heart with me.  When I grab hold, to the cord that binds me to Him, I can do ALL things through Him.  So simple.  He is a knowing on the inside, He is an understanding in me, He is a Light that shines through me, and a voice that speaks to me daily, in that still small voice that comes from within. 

Choosing to live in each moment, holding onto my convictions and beliefs are mine.  My understanding, does not belong to anyone but me.  Although it is available to everyone as it is to me.  See I believe that He has been with me, or should I say I have been with him since the creation of all that is.  He is love, and always has been love.  So I know HIM well.  He has always shown me Love, and care.  He has tucked His Heart inside of mine.  He is my safe place and He is my only way through all that is of this world.  I do not walk alone.  When I reach up and out, and remember all the wonderful moments life has taught me, and that He has walked with me, I spill over with gratitude. 

Today I walk in Love to the best of my ability.  Today I will do what I CAN DO, to walk the life He will walk with me.  Nothing mystical about HIM.  He is ALL there is.  I draw from his well, that is so vast.  He does not limit the amount that I can draw from.  He allows me to reach up anytime I want.  He is always present and always able.  By faith I walk with Him, always.  I will not ask anyone else to fully understand me, or accept what I say as anything other than my own understanding and truth, and this Truth has been with me forever.  So it is something that I totally understand, when I slow down enough to look and see and feel my way through this life.  No one can change what I believe and know. 

I am who I am.  I begin this new day with Him, and through Him, I am able to do all things, that He has set in my heart.  I trust that this day will teach me much.  ♥♥♥

Until we meet again...I send this note out in Love...♥♥♥

ListeningHeart Kim

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Weaving together the history of my life

In weaving my history, I am mending my heart.  In looking back over my life, I am wanting to understand the basic make up of the family to which I have come from.  In looking in, I can view my life from an entirely different perspective.  Almost with a detachment, that allows me to fully participate in the lives that brought me thus far.

I was born to a mother and a father, of the 1940 era.  Families that came up through the rough times, and the era of Vietnam, and the Peace Love and Happiness people, who felt that war was not the answer.

My mother a loving beautiful soul who was a free spirit, somewhat different from the family she came from.  Her mother -Portuguese. Her dad, -Irish and Scottish.  Two different worlds trying to meld together.  Gram-ma Mary Mello, married Harry J. Sears.  Even though I grew up knowing both of them, I realize today, that I don't fully know anyone.  Growing up in that era, so much was based on very hard work, toiling away to make ends meet, and creating strong families, who stuck together no matter what.  I wish I knew more about my gram-ma's side, but even till this day, they're are so many unanswered questions.  It was as  though, she had no family other then her husband, children and grandchildren, her family of origin was not the part of her we got to share in, or privy too.  Gram-pa, Harry's family we know a little more about.  Henry J Sears, married to Elizabeth McDowell and built a house in Fall River with his father, up on a hill in the Highlands of Fall River. They ran a florist and had a lawn care business.  Great grand-pa was the head gardner to the infamous Lizzie Borden. This is the very house that gram-ma Mary and Gran-pa Harry lived there beginning years, and where my mother was residing when she met my dad. 

Life for mom and dad did not start off the best either.  During that time, being a free spirit to which mom was, and dad being a free spirit himself, what else could happen, but "me".  I sure wished many times, that life for me was easier, but as I have uncovered their lives, I am finding mine.  It is through my family who struggled in so many ways, that I am who I am today.  Each road they traveled, is a road I myself have visited in my own personal way.

In uncovering the lineage, I am now able to listen and understand the beginnings and fully appreciate the hard work and toil my family has come up through.  As I see the full lives they have lead, I am more aware of the value of each of them.  There participation is life is the same as mine.  Doing the best they knew how, with what they had.  No excuses, just simple truths.  My journey to myself is leading down the roads that will help bring my own family home.  With a sincere heart I am reaching across time, to pull the truths, and the love, and expand my own horizons into the life we each live.

Today, I truly know how very blessed I am, to even exist, I come from native roots as well, Dads side Frank Fournier a Lineage that comes from Chesire England, Amelia Nannery. Pepe's distant relatives to Celine Dion, Modanna, Camilla, and Hillary Clinton.  As well  Pepe' Lionel Fournier's lineage is of native roots, that we are still discovering, from Canada.  We are tracing as far back as we can, and hoping that this summer, we can have a reunion of sorts, to bring those of us together, to remember and honor our families.

My sister and I began this journey of discovery slowly after the loss of our mother, which took us about 26 years, to even speak about, together in the same room.  So much grief has befallen many in our families, and tragedies are not uncommon in this world.  Out of the darkness and grief of loss she and I, have come to love each other beyond words.  We will walk together and collect our family back together, step by step.

Today, my spirit is full, with many thoughts and visions, I am feeling and sorting my way through, and writing this blog has been a huge tool in uncovering with words the process of our family.  A family whom I love so much, and daily think of with as much love an anyone can have, at the same time, always knowing to each their own way...and in understanding this...I know I am on my way to healing the deep parts of myself.  I am so very grateful to my family who have worked and toiled away and who have instilled love and sensitivity and caring to my life.  I have many stories still to uncover and write about...all to follow...in love I end this note today.  ♥♥♥

ListeningHeart Kim


Friday, January 28, 2011

Making wonderful strides in focusing on "The Work" I am Living.♥

I must say this morning began filled with images of Joyce Meyers, aboriginal ancestors and some possible connections we're made in my understanding.  Powerful amazing and mind blowing realizations as I learn more about my beginnings, I realize just how vast this universe is, and how I came to be, through my ancestors and who in part, some are calling me back home to them, as I delve into the parts of who I AM,. 

Who am I?  Loaded question, I have asked myself.  I am uncovering the layers that my life on earth has given me.  As I look inside, I find so many facets of the same "Me".  I am ONE but, I AM, many?  Sounds kinda esoteric, which Christianity of my understanding frowns upon.  Or do they?  Do we all read the same HOLY BIBLE?  Do we all draw from the same WELL?  Do we all come from the same place? 

I am understanding the who, the what and the where's to my life.  As I slowly have let go, of the holding patterns of other people and their lives.  I have been able to focus more clearly on what makes me tick and tock, and allows me to witness the truth of who I AM, and who I AM NOT. 


Can one really ever know who they are?  Fully?  Without doubt?  I seriously want to give it a try.  An attempt to my own wholeness.  I believe in my heart of hearts, that if I pursue with an earnest heart, that I will find my nirvana.  Again the esoteric words, that I find myself filtering or adding for shock value for some who might read this and say, exactly Kim, Esoteric is EVIL...I can almost here them screaming loudly in my head as I type this.  On the other hand, I believe words are up for interpretation, to oneself.  What I believe about something, should carry no weight on another, unless it rings true, for them as well, in some form.  Thus the bubbling up of hatred and pointing fingers begin to emerge their  heads. 

See I am really understanding that this life is mine.  I am totally responsible for ever single action I take.  My ability's and my in-abilities are mine, and fall under my own control,.  So long as I harm no one on purpose with intent to destroy, then I will be OK.  Maybe?  I am trying to find this very special place that I know is within my spirit.  A place of balance and a place of peace...and to find this place, I must travel through myself uncovering my existence, to get to my center of total action of truth.  Once I fully understand both sides, I can make an informed choice fully knowing the consequences on each side.  Making an informed choice, to live my live to its best ability, with purpose of heart. 

Am I paranoid, am I compulsive obsessive, mentally ill...well I guess so according to the worlds view.  I do know this, I do feel different, and that i don't fit in, in many places.  I am the square peg in a round hole so to speak.  As I uncover the nuances that make me,- "Me".  I will be fully able to follow my bliss.  I have been told, we all have this place... Bliss, bliss, bliss...why should I create any other life for myself, other than a place that I know would offer others the same opportunity...to find their own, special and unique place, that they call Home...a place of finally settling in...and knowing all to well, your calling in this life was lived, and shared, to only create more,...because simply said...there is always enough, forever one...when we can reach that place...we will know, we have enough, always, and no matter where we are in this or on this EARTH...

My bliss is coming,...A world where everyone is equal, and hearts bind through the gifts of Love.