I must say this morning began filled with images of Joyce Meyers, aboriginal ancestors and some possible connections we're made in my understanding. Powerful amazing and mind blowing realizations as I learn more about my beginnings, I realize just how vast this universe is, and how I came to be, through my ancestors and who in part, some are calling me back home to them, as I delve into the parts of who I AM,.
Who am I? Loaded question, I have asked myself. I am uncovering the layers that my life on earth has given me. As I look inside, I find so many facets of the same "Me". I am ONE but, I AM, many? Sounds kinda esoteric, which Christianity of my understanding frowns upon. Or do they? Do we all read the same HOLY BIBLE? Do we all draw from the same WELL? Do we all come from the same place?
I am understanding the who, the what and the where's to my life. As I slowly have let go, of the holding patterns of other people and their lives. I have been able to focus more clearly on what makes me tick and tock, and allows me to witness the truth of who I AM, and who I AM NOT.
Can one really ever know who they are? Fully? Without doubt? I seriously want to give it a try. An attempt to my own wholeness. I believe in my heart of hearts, that if I pursue with an earnest heart, that I will find my nirvana. Again the esoteric words, that I find myself filtering or adding for shock value for some who might read this and say, exactly Kim, Esoteric is EVIL...I can almost here them screaming loudly in my head as I type this. On the other hand, I believe words are up for interpretation, to oneself. What I believe about something, should carry no weight on another, unless it rings true, for them as well, in some form. Thus the bubbling up of hatred and pointing fingers begin to emerge their heads.
See I am really understanding that this life is mine. I am totally responsible for ever single action I take. My ability's and my in-abilities are mine, and fall under my own control,. So long as I harm no one on purpose with intent to destroy, then I will be OK. Maybe? I am trying to find this very special place that I know is within my spirit. A place of balance and a place of peace...and to find this place, I must travel through myself uncovering my existence, to get to my center of total action of truth. Once I fully understand both sides, I can make an informed choice fully knowing the consequences on each side. Making an informed choice, to live my live to its best ability, with purpose of heart.
Am I paranoid, am I compulsive obsessive, mentally ill...well I guess so according to the worlds view. I do know this, I do feel different, and that i don't fit in, in many places. I am the square peg in a round hole so to speak. As I uncover the nuances that make me,- "Me". I will be fully able to follow my bliss. I have been told, we all have this place... Bliss, bliss, bliss...why should I create any other life for myself, other than a place that I know would offer others the same opportunity...to find their own, special and unique place, that they call Home...a place of finally settling in...and knowing all to well, your calling in this life was lived, and shared, to only create more,...because simply said...there is always enough, forever one...when we can reach that place...we will know, we have enough, always, and no matter where we are in this or on this EARTH...
My bliss is coming,...A world where everyone is equal, and hearts bind through the gifts of Love.
Who am I? Loaded question, I have asked myself. I am uncovering the layers that my life on earth has given me. As I look inside, I find so many facets of the same "Me". I am ONE but, I AM, many? Sounds kinda esoteric, which Christianity of my understanding frowns upon. Or do they? Do we all read the same HOLY BIBLE? Do we all draw from the same WELL? Do we all come from the same place?
I am understanding the who, the what and the where's to my life. As I slowly have let go, of the holding patterns of other people and their lives. I have been able to focus more clearly on what makes me tick and tock, and allows me to witness the truth of who I AM, and who I AM NOT.
Can one really ever know who they are? Fully? Without doubt? I seriously want to give it a try. An attempt to my own wholeness. I believe in my heart of hearts, that if I pursue with an earnest heart, that I will find my nirvana. Again the esoteric words, that I find myself filtering or adding for shock value for some who might read this and say, exactly Kim, Esoteric is EVIL...I can almost here them screaming loudly in my head as I type this. On the other hand, I believe words are up for interpretation, to oneself. What I believe about something, should carry no weight on another, unless it rings true, for them as well, in some form. Thus the bubbling up of hatred and pointing fingers begin to emerge their heads.
See I am really understanding that this life is mine. I am totally responsible for ever single action I take. My ability's and my in-abilities are mine, and fall under my own control,. So long as I harm no one on purpose with intent to destroy, then I will be OK. Maybe? I am trying to find this very special place that I know is within my spirit. A place of balance and a place of peace...and to find this place, I must travel through myself uncovering my existence, to get to my center of total action of truth. Once I fully understand both sides, I can make an informed choice fully knowing the consequences on each side. Making an informed choice, to live my live to its best ability, with purpose of heart.
Am I paranoid, am I compulsive obsessive, mentally ill...well I guess so according to the worlds view. I do know this, I do feel different, and that i don't fit in, in many places. I am the square peg in a round hole so to speak. As I uncover the nuances that make me,- "Me". I will be fully able to follow my bliss. I have been told, we all have this place... Bliss, bliss, bliss...why should I create any other life for myself, other than a place that I know would offer others the same opportunity...to find their own, special and unique place, that they call Home...a place of finally settling in...and knowing all to well, your calling in this life was lived, and shared, to only create more,...because simply said...there is always enough, forever one...when we can reach that place...we will know, we have enough, always, and no matter where we are in this or on this EARTH...
My bliss is coming,...A world where everyone is equal, and hearts bind through the gifts of Love.
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